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To Stop Being Less Than I Am
November 16, 2017
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“You’re too humble,” she says to me and I try not to laugh. Being humble is something I have never been accused of. “I mean it. You need to tell people about what you do. People need to know. You can’t be quiet about it.” “You’re right,” I say, not sure what to do with this information. I walk out to my car thinking it over. I feel like I talk adnauseum about the work that I do. So I…

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Two Years With Her: An Anniversary Love Letter
November 14, 2017
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Last year when I wrote my anniversary love letter it all still seemed so new and fragile. Built on a firm foundation, for sure, but still like an earthquake could bring it all down. We were still learning each other. Still figuring out what this thing was and if it could work for the long term. On Sunday we celebrated our two year anniversary. We went to “Dave and Busters” and played video games and then came home and watched…

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You Have To Choose Healing
November 9, 2017
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At some point you have to choose healing. I’m not talking the miraculous “positive thinking” or saying that everything will get better overnight. I’m not saying you don’t need therapy or medicine. I’m not saying it will be easy. I’m not even saying what healing looks like. But I am saying that at some point you have to choose healing. To want it. To move toward it. To desire it. To reclaim your life apart from the things done to…

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Will You Save Us?
November 7, 2017
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November marks the month in which the transgender community observes the Transgender Day of Remembrance. Usually on November 20, it’s a day set aside to mourn and remember all of the people who have been lost in the last year to violence. It’s always a sobering day and preparing for the remembrance service always feels weighty. But this year…this year it feels even more so. The other day I made a presentation for a remembrance ceremony I was going to…

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The Audience, The Critics, And The Gatekeepers…. And You
November 2, 2017
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It’s been a string of rejections; one right after another. On the one hand I expected it. I’m new to applying for things, I’m still learning, I don’t have the credentials or the connections other people have. On the other hand it’s been demoralizing because this play that I’ve been sending out is the one that I am the most proud of. I think it’s my best work yet. And still, rejected, rejected, rejected. And then there’s the feedback; they…

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Coming Back To The Wonder
October 31, 2017
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The other week I got in my car and drove 30 minutes out of the city to what felt like a secluded retreat center (but was really only 5 minutes outside of the suburbs). I was heading there as a playwriting mentor and I was super nervous. Let me back up. The program is through a local theatre and they have two sessions. In the Spring (which I wrote about here) they pair a local playwright with a young actor….

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The Agony Of Being A Beginner
October 17, 2017
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When I was in college I took a year of French. I had never taken a foreign language before. I met my (homeschooled) high school requirements by taking Biblical Greek. (Why, yes, I have always been this big of a nerd. Why do you ask?) I decided to take French for two reasons: To get out of a class I had heard horror stories about (something about world views and how everything was a cult and evil and bad except…

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Yes. I Love Hanson.
October 12, 2017
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People laugh when I tell them I’m a Hanson fan and that I was super excited to be going to see them in concert. Yes. That Hanson. The brother boy band. The ones who sang “Mmmmbop”. I know it sounds ridiculous. And even more ridiculous when I tell them that, for me, this isn’t just a nostalgia trip remembering my high school years, but that I have remained a fan from Mmmmbop on. 

They’re still making music? Yes. 25 years…

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Look At Where We Are… Look At Where We Started
October 10, 2017
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photo credit Hillary Olson Photography I missed writing all last week and I don’t want to miss again this week but honestly I am exhausted. We’re in the middle of the run of These Shining Lives and I always seem to forget how much it takes out of me. From the late nights of technical rehearsals, to show nights with dinner afterwards, to being at the theatre for days in a row and then trying to keep up with my…

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You Have More Power Than You Think
September 28, 2017
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Every morning I would wake up and be so overwhelmed with stress about heading in to work that I would throw up. For months this went on. You’d think I would realize that something was wrong, that work shouldn’t make you feel like that, like maybe I should do something about it. Sure I put out a couple of job applications. Sure I searched job boards. But I didn’t do much. Because I needed my job. I was living paycheck…

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