Shannon T.L. Kearns
Shannon T.L. Kearns
2015
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The Year Of Being Awake
December 31, 2015
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As I’ve been thinking about all that the Year of Courage has shaken loose in me, I’ve been thinking about what it’s taught me. I’ve realized that there are ways in which I am passive; waiting for things to happen to me, waiting for situations to change, waiting for a solution to present itself even when I know what the solution is, or that something needs to change, or that things can’t stay the same. The Year of Courage taught…

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Saying Goodbye To The Year Of Courage
December 30, 2015
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Last year I decided to try something new; to set a word to focus on for the year. I chose the word courage. I wrote an essay about what I meant by courage: applying myself, going all out, etc. I also wrote about some of my plans and goals for the year. I’m sitting here, almost a full year later (but still, only a year later) and the life I was living when I wrote those words doesn’t exist anymore….

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Do Not Be Afraid
December 29, 2015
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It’s one of the most oft used phrases in the Bible: “Don’t be afraid.” It’s usually said after something completely terrifying happens, like a huge choir of angels appearing out of nowhere in the sky, or someone receiving some kind of vision. The recipient of the holy message is cowering and freaking out and the giver tells them “don’t be afraid.” It feels kind of like a “yeah right” moment. An impossible command given a little too late. I’ve been…

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Caring For Creation
December 25, 2015
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The other day I was struggling to come up with ideas for essays and so I went to my online community and asked for prompts. Over the next several days I plan on posting my responses to those prompts. Today’s prompt: “Write about why you love animals and why care for creation is important.” I have to admit to not loving this prompt at first. I was going to skip it but that seemed like the easy way out so…

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I Leaned In And Let It Hurt
December 21, 2015
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An essay inspired by the song Pluto by Sleeping At Last. I woke up from the same dream: Falling backwards, falling backwards ’Til it turned me inside out. Now I live a waking life Of looking backwards, looking backwards; A model citizen of doubt. I am surrounded by bits of nostalgia. Posters of plays I did in college, medals from performances in high school, stuffed animals that I’ve had since I was a child. I am surrounded by questions: why…

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What About Lazarus
December 18, 2015
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The other day I was struggling to come up with ideas for essays and so I went to my online community and asked for prompts. Over the next several days I plan on posting my responses to those prompts. Today’s prompt: “Pick a Bible character not often talked about and write a story from their perspective.” The stories I am most interested in are the stories of Jesus and then of the fledgling Christian community that tries to make sense…

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Words Will Save Me
December 17, 2015
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I came to the blank page out of desperation. After another crowded room where I felt invisible. Where every story shared was about everyone but me. I couldn’t seem to make myself heard over the noise of party guests and popular kids. I blend into the wallpaper with a drink in my hand, praying that someone would come and talk to me. I wanted someone to want to know my story. I came home and I thought, if I can…

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The Hero Is The One Who Survives
December 16, 2015
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Recently I re-watched “Dollhouse” with someone who had never watched it before. As I re-watched I was once again blown away by the intricacy of the story; the way it both worked as standalone episodes and built over the course of the season. There was the surface action, but below it all was the rising conflict. There is something really special about writers who can create massive worlds and keep them going for entire seasons (or thousands of pages). I’ve…

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Is My Shame A Gift
December 15, 2015
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This post is part of this year’s Queer Theology Synchroblog on the theme of sex and bodies. Read the rest of the entries and contribute one of your own! It was my idea, this topic for the synchroblog. It was my idea to have every write about sex and bodies. I believe that queer and trans people have vital things to teach the world about sex and bodies. I believe that it’s crucial that we start to talk about sex…

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Refusing To Be Broken
December 14, 2015
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This was originally posted over at A Deeper Story but since that site is no longer active, I wanted to repost this essay here. Her soft, wrinkled hand grasps mine. “You’re such a nice young man.” I feel the heat rise in my face and know that my ears must be crimson. My teammate stands next to me and tries not to laugh. I whisper “Thank you” and beat a hasty retreat. As I walk away I wonder if the…

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